Date : Saturday, September 29, 2012
Time : 6:45 AM
Moooooved

I've moved to http://smmnw.blogspot.com
because this URL is lame...

Created this in secondary 1 and realised it's stupid and makes no sense now.

Date : Friday, June 8, 2012
Time : 9:23 AM
What kind of heart doesn't look back?

He's the air I would kill to breathe...
He holds my love in his hand...
Out of breathe, I went.
Hoping someday,
one day, I would breathe again.

Under the heavy rain,
the fire still glows,
glows so brightly,
glows so bright, it blinds...

This love,
you would never know,
how much it means to me.
How much I want to be her,
how much i want us to be us again...

This kills me so much.
Pratically like a living dead...

You will never be back.
That is the honest truth.
We're strangers again.

Are those memories suppose to fade in the air, to be gone with the wind with you?
What are they to you now?

Whenever i try,
i try really oh so hard, they only come back vivid.
They crawl back, crawl back to a corner of my mind...

Cry,
you wouldnt know...
I still care,
I'm still there...
Watching over you...
silently,
secretly,
distantly.

What kind of heart doesn't look back?
Do your's look back at me?
If it does, come back.
Come back.
Come back.
I need you here,
I need you now.
Come back.

Date : Monday, May 21, 2012
Time : 7:11 AM
favourite place of all time

went to my favourite place again today.
it never fails to make me feel so calmed and relaxed.
sitting there, stoning... may just be the best thing to do there.
i could do that all day...
once im there, memories start to renew by themselves...
its sad because all these were what we once had.
not sure if you still remember them,
i hope you do...
your dreams, your aspirations, your future, all that you have said are still fresh in my head.
when you said it, where you said it, i can remember all these so clearly.
i smiled at my foolishness.
i smiled at your image i had of you.
i missed you so much.
i swear if i were to see you walking past in front of me, i would jump up right to you and hug you so damn tight that you wouldnt leave.
of course, i would cry,
i will cry
and i wont let you go.
i wouldnt let you go...
deep inside me, hoping you would hug me back,
pat my head, look at me and wipe my tears,
and tell me, you wouldnt leave.
take my hand and sit with me.
me leaning on you, with your right arm over my shoulders,
staring into the beautiful space.
kissing my forehead gently...

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listening to our kind of song...
keeping mute.
enjoying every second, every moment we have left.
living in paranoia, that the next glance i looked at you, you will disappear.
disappear far far away from me.

it is just sad like that.

i want you back,
i want you here now.
this instant!
please?

i can really die everyday waiting for you...
my life you can take it.
i dont want it.
i dont want it without you.